My quarantine routine: wake up, take my morning meds, tell myself everything will be okay, make lunch, keep myself busy, get back in bed, take my night meds, sleep (or lay in bed for 8 hours with anxiety and insomnia), do it again.
As a 20 year old college student with bipolar disorder, ADD, and anxiety being stuck inside is killing me. I'm no social butterfly anymore, I spend a lot of time in my apartment. I'm aware of this. Yet this quarantine, the fact that I can't leave right now is teaching me a lot about myself. Sure I love being here with my cat on most days, but I also have that to look forward to. When I go to class I know I get to come home and play my Nintendo Switch while hanging out with my cat, but now knowing that being home is all I have to do the idea fills me with dread. Getting out, even if it's once a day to just do something small, was more important to my mental health than I could have realized.
I'm worried to visit my parents right now, they take care of my grandfather and they're all at risk. I'm worried that this will go on much longer than we ever imagined. I'm worried I'm going to go crazy sitting inside my apartment. I'm worried, but I'm hopeful.
I do things every day to keep myself grounded. I get up and get ready just like I would any other day. I take care of myself. I play Animal Crossing, and play my ukulele, and write code in my spare time when I'm not working on homework. I stay strong because I know that this too shall pass. I'm taking special care to make sure I come out of this in a positive headspace. That's not to say I don't have bad days. I am about 5 days in of just sitting in my apartment, 8 into being mostly alone besides one visit to my parents. I can't count the amount of times I've caught myself dissociating, or the number of days I've woke up and wanted nothing more than to go back to sleep until this is all over.
That's the thing though, this won't just be over. In a few weeks everything will open back up, people will be going outside and it will be spring. We'll open our windows and go out to eat but that doesn't change anything. People will still get sick, hospitals will still be busy, nothing will be normal. That's not to say this is all for nothing, that's actually exactly the point of this. Not to stop it, but to spread it out due to our limited resources. Once this is 'over' it will still be happening but we'll be focused on everything coming back to life around us. Being able to sit down at a restaurant with your family again, going to the movies, running to the grocery store. Just remember to keep an eye on everyone around you, symptoms could still pop up, people could still be sick, and it's important that we're all in this together.
Take care of yourself.
As a 20 year old college student with bipolar disorder, ADD, and anxiety being stuck inside is killing me. I'm no social butterfly anymore, I spend a lot of time in my apartment. I'm aware of this. Yet this quarantine, the fact that I can't leave right now is teaching me a lot about myself. Sure I love being here with my cat on most days, but I also have that to look forward to. When I go to class I know I get to come home and play my Nintendo Switch while hanging out with my cat, but now knowing that being home is all I have to do the idea fills me with dread. Getting out, even if it's once a day to just do something small, was more important to my mental health than I could have realized.
I'm worried to visit my parents right now, they take care of my grandfather and they're all at risk. I'm worried that this will go on much longer than we ever imagined. I'm worried I'm going to go crazy sitting inside my apartment. I'm worried, but I'm hopeful.
I do things every day to keep myself grounded. I get up and get ready just like I would any other day. I take care of myself. I play Animal Crossing, and play my ukulele, and write code in my spare time when I'm not working on homework. I stay strong because I know that this too shall pass. I'm taking special care to make sure I come out of this in a positive headspace. That's not to say I don't have bad days. I am about 5 days in of just sitting in my apartment, 8 into being mostly alone besides one visit to my parents. I can't count the amount of times I've caught myself dissociating, or the number of days I've woke up and wanted nothing more than to go back to sleep until this is all over.
That's the thing though, this won't just be over. In a few weeks everything will open back up, people will be going outside and it will be spring. We'll open our windows and go out to eat but that doesn't change anything. People will still get sick, hospitals will still be busy, nothing will be normal. That's not to say this is all for nothing, that's actually exactly the point of this. Not to stop it, but to spread it out due to our limited resources. Once this is 'over' it will still be happening but we'll be focused on everything coming back to life around us. Being able to sit down at a restaurant with your family again, going to the movies, running to the grocery store. Just remember to keep an eye on everyone around you, symptoms could still pop up, people could still be sick, and it's important that we're all in this together.
Take care of yourself.
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